we are 39 weeks, 2 days today. i’d be lying if i didn’t say how desperate we feel to meet you. but we trust in God’s timing and are praying for patience daily.
i’ve been a little near-sighted in my prayers lately and i wanted you to know because i think it’s a mistake i make sometimes. i’ve been praying to God for strength + endurance in the delivery room because no matter how brave i’m trying to be to everyone else, i’m truly terrified of giving birth. i’m not afraid of the pain, necessarily, but of your safety and yes, now that i’m being honest with myself, the pain! but what i’ve failed to realize is this:
no matter how long that day is or how excruciating, in the end, there will be you! and then what? why haven’t i been praying for our life after you’re here? see what i mean? near-sighted. so i want to take this opportunity, in a place you’ll be able to read it, to write down a prayer for you, harrison russell. because i want you to know my heart just days before you were born.
[ dear Jesus, ]
[ thank you so much for little harrison. thank you for entrusting him to us. neither of us feel worthy of this honor, but we pray that we strive each day to be more than we were the day before. we pray that you would deliver our son safely into the world and that we might know how to care for him once he's here. we ask, Jesus, for your protection and your wisdom.
may harrison have a servant's heart, with kindness and gentleness towards others, may he be a leader and also a follower. may he have patience like his father and integrity like his grandfather russ. may he be slow to anger and quick to forgive.
above all, dear Jesus, may harrison be God-fearing and a disciple of You. we love this boy with our whole hearts and ask that You would guide and direct him along his journey. point him towards good people that can influence him, and people who are different that can challenge him. we thank you, Jesus, for our precious son.
In your name, we pray, amen. ]